I don't have super powers because my child has autism... In fact I'm just a parent trying my best to care for both my kids. Somedays great.... Somedays I falter but through out it all I keep trying. I don't always know the best way to handle it when my tween daughter gives me attitude or when my ASD son decides he wants to hit me. In those moments I question if I'm doing the right things for them, in what aspects have I failed.
When he does hit me ( which isn't often..he's actually only hit me twice) I find myself at a loss. I sternly tell him " don't hit me" .....does it fall on deaf ears? Is he getting what I'm saying? Is it registering ? I don't always know. I tell him " I don't hit you, don't hit me" followed by a time out. He usually talks the whole time he's on time out....sometimes even saying he's not my friend and that he's not going to talk to me anymore.
As always it doesn't take long for him to come and try to hug me or kiss me. Always followed by "I'm sorry mama" it's especially hard to deal with these moments alone. I don't have anyone that I can say hey just watch them for a bit I need to just lock myself in the bathroom and cry.
So no, I do not have super powers....I'm not one of the chosen ppl God has decided deserves a special needs child..I'm just a parent....a mom. ....trying my best.
